Yes, I'm ready for this baby, but not yet ready. I'm ready for him to come next week, after Mom arrives Saturday, after a few errands in town.
I enter a Jacob-wrestle with God. Will I lean in, trust - or will I tense, fear? I track contractions: 5:36, 5:48, 6:01. "Yes," I say. "Yes."
Let go. Lean in.
The errands might not get done. I believe if baby comes before Mom get's here, the Lord will - is - providing all we need for the birth.
I relax and enjoy this for the gift it is.
I sleep soundly until 7:30.